Jaeleon

Had a good Valentine's day this year

"I hope you never lose your sense of wonder,
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger.
May you never take one single breath for granted,
GOD forbid love ever leave you empty handed.
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the
ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens.
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance…"

………

"I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances but they're worth taking ,
Loving might be a mistake but it's worth making.
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter,
When you come close to selling out, reconsider."

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"Tell me Who wants to look back on their years and wonder Where those years have gone?."

This is the most quotable song everrr!

"Peter wanted to rouse the complacent believers who had listened to the false teachers and believed that because salvation is not based on good deeds, they could live any way they wanted. If you truly belong to the Lord, Peter wrote, your hard work will prove it. If you're not working to develop the qualities listed in 2 Peter 1:5-7, maybe you don't belong to him. If you are the Lord's-and your hard work backs up your claim to be chosen by God ("called and chosen'')-you will never be led astray by the lure of false teaching or glamorous sin."

*sigh* He is honestly the nicest guy I've ever met. But I just don't like him. I gave it a few weeks which was a mistake. He has developed feelings which are polar opposite of mine. Within about the 3 weeks of hanging I've received 2 poems and numerous texts expressing his serious feelings :( Whereas I have absolutely no physical attraction to him and though his personality is kind, it's too passive and feminine for me.

I have tried not to state any direct feelings which would be misleading but I've realized sometimes not saying anything is worse and is just another form of lying. I know social experiments aren't morally nice because people have feelings but I thought this would, if nothing else, be a good life lesson for us both.

I've learned it is hard to change first impressions, but it's not impossible. I thought he was unattractive and wack at first. But after giving him a chance I realized he's also thoughtful and kind. But I like what I like. And you cant force what isn't there. Unattractive, wack, kind, & thoughtful might work for some. Just not me. I don't feel like I'm shallow. I've been attracted to men who others felt weren't attractive but it was just something there for me. Didn't happen this time.

Wish it was a good way to end this but I know that ship sailed after the first outing. But isn't that what dating is for? To see if more than a friendship is possible? I do feel bad though, deep down I knew nothing more than a friendship would come from this. I already know who I'm going to end up with ♥ シ so this seems to have been just for kicks. At this point I don't know what my intentions were. Horrible, I know. *sigh* Nice going, Jaeleon >:(

Hope karma doesn't destroy me for this ♡

"Too often we see peace as merely the absence of conflict, and we think of peacemaking as a passive role. But an effective peacemaker actively pursues peace. He or she builds good relationships, knowing that peace is a by-product of commitment. The peacemaker anticipates problems and deals with them before they occur. When conflicts arise, he or she brings them into the open and deals with them before they grow unmanageable. Making peace can be harder work than waging war, but it results not in death but in life and happiness."